yesterday i was grateful for my neighbor David who volunteered to drive me to the train station…
today i am looking forward to exploring hotel life for a day…
yesterday i was grateful for the help of Joyce, the dietitian at Sun River Health, with making a diet plan to address my borderline diabetes…
today i am looking forward to positioning myself at the airport hotel where i will hunker down for Sunday’s snow storm before catching a plane to Seattle on Monday…
have you ever put on footwear that transformed your whole being when you walked in them?… a new pair of women’s boots i bought changes the way i walk and feel while walking… it’s magical-wonderful… this has never happened to me before…
i keep reminding myself that for all my 70 years of life, my worst fears have never been realized… i would love to think that means they never will be, but i know better… with inauguration day approaching, i feel i am standing… we are all standing… at the edge of an abyss… we don’t know how deep it is… we don’t know how chaotic it will be… we don’t know how evil it will be… i expect it will be a level of all those things that i will not like…
the aforementioned emerald green nails…
yesterday i was grateful for a clean bill of health from my skin doctor, lunch with Holly, and the woman who did my nails in a gorgeous metallic emerald green color…
today i am looking forward to meeting with the nutritionist at the health center and taking Holly to the apple store in Danbury to pick up her new computer…
yesterday i was grateful for a good meeting with my work colleagues and talking with my mom on the phone…
today i am looking forward to lunch with Holly and getting my nails done in a new metallic green color from Nailberry…
being “the change i wish to see”
my conviction is that masculine and feminine are way out of balance in my world… masculine is dominating to the point of severe oppression… i fundamentally believe in a feminine way of looking and behaving towards the world… nurturance, sensitivity, supportiveness, gentleness, warmth, cooperativeness, expressiveness, modesty, humility, empathy, affection, tenderness, kindness, helpfulness and devotedness, are a list of qualities considered feminine…
yesterday i was grateful for a day free of sciatic nerve pain and Pizza Phil’s with Holly…
today i am looking forward to meeting with my colleagues at the cemetery and the delivery of a new dress…
Truth is not a thing to be possessed, however immaterial, but a path to follow, a process. Iain McGilchrist The Matter With Things
new boots… finding feminine shoes that fit me has been a challenge… these boots came from Italy… my other shoe source is Ireland… is cross dressing more common in Europe?… are women bigger in Europe?… is Europe more willing to serve large size women?… all of the above?…
yesterday i had grateful for seeing the new bob dylan movie with holly…
today i am looking forward to meeting with our landscape designer to discuss this year’s garden renovations and, monday night jazz at quinn’s
selfie from yesterday…
yesterday i was grateful for a lovely dinner with k&b…
today i am looking forward to the farmers market and a quiet day at home…
my new year coping strategy - smbk - Obsidian Publish
this year i decided that i need a solid coping-strategy for meeting it all with quiet fortitude… i needed a strategy that keeps me fully grounded… i have put together a coping plan… it begins with a manifesto…
Are you aware of the balls it takes to be sissy?
yesterday i was grateful for time spent with family and for Beauty Ritual where Karen added awesome blue and green highlights to my hair, and for the feminine comraderie i experience there…
today i am looking forward to getting the household chores done and dinner with longtime friends K&B…
yesterday i was grateful for time spent with family and for Beauty Ritual where Karen added awesome blue and green highlights to my hair, and for the feminine comradere i experience there…
today i am looking forward to getting the household chores done and dinner with longtime friends K&B…
yesterday i was grateful for the three pairs of new shoes that were waiting for me when i returned from yoga and pizza with Holly… and that they all fit!…
today i am looking forward to breakfast with K, lunch with Holly and her brother Matt, and getting my hair highlighted with blue and green to harmonize with my glasses…
yesterday i was grateful that my mother was finally getting over her cold…
today i am looking forward to restorative yoga and maybe a slice of Pizza John’s pizza afterwards…
From yesterday…
2025-01-06 - smbk - Obsidian Publish
immediately after the election i felt significant fear about my trans-feminine explorations, which i have been openly pursuing for more that a year… i believed i would have to tone it down… that the political climate would lead to the repression of my trans-feminine identity… i left my dresses, especially my midi and maxi dresses in the closet… i imagined i would have to take my most feminine clothing and accessories to clothing donation boxes in the middle of the night…
yesterday i was grateful for arriving safely at work… the Teconic was a sheet of ice at a certain point…
today i am looking forward to yoga and lunch with Holly…
yesterday i was grateful for a clean house and the fresh baked bread that Holly made…
today i am looking forward to the farmer’s market and an exploratory trip to Home Goods…
yesterday i was grateful to be found in generally good health by my doctor…
today i am looking forward to getting the laundry and vacuuming done, and dismantling the Christmas tree with Holly…