yesterday i was grateful for time with my sister, brother and nephew and the little girl who was trying to figure my gender out…

today i am looking forward to breakfast at the Streamliner dinner and a trip into Seattle to visit the new aquarium…

got me a new hat…

head and shoulders portrait of a man with thick green crystal frame glasses, black sweater and gray felt broad brim hat…

yesterday i was grateful for a well attended, lively and interesting virtual photography salon, and for technology that worked…

today i am looking forward to lunch with my brother and nephew and a visit to the Seattle art museum…

yesterday i was grateful for the women who have been supportive of my shift into feminine space and who have welcomed me with gifts of jewelry and clothing…

today i am looking forward to helping my mom run errands and the virtual photography salon i run once a month…

from this morning…

utilities boxes and sign saying “SUPER SUPPERS HERE TODAY 5:00 PM,” scene illuminated by streetlights

side of a building with wooden picket fence and foundation plants, fence casting a shadow across the building, scene illuminated by streetlights

inflatable Christmas decoration with packages, penguin and snowman

yesterday i was grateful for a surprise encounter with my sister and an NFL playoffs party with my brother and mother…

today i am looking forward to taking my mother to get her hair styled…

from this morning…

frost on hood of a car illuminated by a streetlight which casts diagonal shadows across the hood from fencing

a stck of wooden shipping pallets illuminated by a security light

signage warning about need to move to higher ground in event of an earthquake

concrete pavers, wall and sidewalk in an angular abstract arrangement

yesterday i was grateful for a nail salon outing with my mother, niece and brother; the spectacular Olympic Mountains range so clearly visible from the nail salon town; dinner with my sister and her husband…

today i am looking forward to an NFL playoffs party with my brother, hosted by my mother…

yesterday i was grateful for dinner and a movie with my brother…

today i am looking forward to a nail salon afternoon with my mother, niece and brother… and dinner with the family at my sister’s house…

yesterday i was grateful for the use of my sister’s car, and sharing the experience of cannabis gummies with my mother…

today i am looking forward to breakfast with my brother at the Streamliner diner…

yesterday i was grateful for quality time with my mother and brother…

today i am looking forward to trying the streamliner diner for breakfast at 7 as a changeup to my routine…

yesterday i was grateful for an uneventful flight to Seattle…

today i am looking forward to my Bainbridge Island routines and visiting with my family…

yesterday i was grateful for football with my brother and a trio of black women on the elevator who were into my nail polish color…

today i am looking forward to landing in Seattle and seeing my family…

hmmm… what do i do?…

somehow it’s not physical but emotional hurt that comes to mind when i read this sign…

came up on elevator with a group of black ladies who were really into my nails and impressed that they matched my glasses… “that’s how Elton John would do it!” one of them said:-)

yesterday i was grateful for my neighbor David who volunteered to drive me to the train station…

today i am looking forward to exploring hotel life for a day…

yesterday i was grateful for the help of Joyce, the dietitian at Sun River Health, with making a diet plan to address my borderline diabetes…

today i am looking forward to positioning myself at the airport hotel where i will hunker down for Sunday’s snow storm before catching a plane to Seattle on Monday…

have you ever put on footwear that transformed your whole being when you walked in them?… a new pair of women’s boots i bought changes the way i walk and feel while walking… it’s magical-wonderful… this has never happened to me before…

staring into the abyss?

i keep reminding myself that for all my 70 years of life, my worst fears have never been realized… i would love to think that means they never will be, but i know better… with inauguration day approaching, i feel i am standing… we are all standing… at the edge of an abyss… we don’t know how deep it is… we don’t know how chaotic it will be… we don’t know how evil it will be… i expect it will be a level of all those things that i will not like…

the aforementioned emerald green nails…

yesterday i was grateful for a clean bill of health from my skin doctor, lunch with Holly, and the woman who did my nails in a gorgeous metallic emerald green color…

today i am looking forward to meeting with the nutritionist at the health center and taking Holly to the apple store in Danbury to pick up her new computer…

yesterday i was grateful for a good meeting with my work colleagues and talking with my mom on the phone…

today i am looking forward to lunch with Holly and getting my nails done in a new metallic green color from Nailberry…

being “the change i wish to see”

my conviction is that masculine and feminine are way out of balance in my world… masculine is dominating to the point of severe oppression… i fundamentally believe in a feminine way of looking and behaving towards the world… nurturance, sensitivity, supportiveness, gentleness, warmth, cooperativeness, expressiveness, modesty, humility, empathy, affection, tenderness, kindness, helpfulness and devotedness, are a list of qualities considered feminine…

yesterday i was grateful for a day free of sciatic nerve pain and Pizza Phil’s with Holly…

today i am looking forward to meeting with my colleagues at the cemetery and the delivery of a new dress…