July 16, 2022…

… no weigh in today… partying last night… the numbers won’t be good… tomorrow… good time with E, B, M and J last night… we decided to do meat chickens and B has ordered… harvest in mid October… 10 chickens to freeze, almost one per month… i wonder about starting them in the high heat part of the summer but… most of them will survive to harvest… i read my journal entries for the week… i don’t feel like writing by hand… i like the feeling of pen on paper but i don’t like that it’s not digital and transferable to anywhere else…

… i have been thinking about what gives life meaning… why my life seems to be devoid of it right now… one thought… the Enlightenment Humanist world order i have been enmeshed in is unraveling… it feels quite possible, even likely, that the USA will succumb to the dark side of its nature… HCR wrote this morning about the failure to hold the south accountable after the Civil War… this has led to festering resentment for nearly two centuries… the situation we are in now… she notes the importance of holding people accountable, that we didn’t do so then… paying the price for it now… she notes we are trying to do so now…

… a woman telling loud-talking-barista her eyes are “so blue” with the top she has on… the woman sounds African American to me… i wonder if i am right… i am waiting for her to move to a place where i can see her… she does… she is not… so much for voice as a race identifier…

… annoying music…

… monkey pox is in the news… i look up how it is transmitted… by close contact with someone who has it… not through the air…

… time to go…

… later…

… thinking about making photos with small details that are easily missed but the reason the photograph is made…

… we’ve been seeing lots of fireflies in the evening… i look them up and Wikipedia informs me they are in worldwide decline… this makes the current show more remarkable… we must go out and watch the show… it may disappear one day and never come back… children will loose another source of wonder…

… doing a clean install of the operating system… hoping for improved performance… will install apps one by one to see if any of them have been the cause of slow performance…

… about 12 minutes…

8 billion people before the end of the year

… growth continues despite being a bad idea…

Rediscovered Beat-Era Artist Rick Barton’s Drawings Publicly Showcased for the First Time

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Barton is essentially a diarist chronicling the highs and lows of his life, his love of classical music, his visits to Mexico and Barcelona, and his feelings of both desire and isolation. Although he was particularly interested in church facades and interiors, he seemed to draw whatever was in front of him wherever he was; it was his way of organizing the interior and exterior chaos of his life.

… the sadness of not being noticed until after death overtakes you… what is the meaning of that?… what is the message to all people in that…

Towards a Post Capitalist Future

And while the degrowth movement is clearly progressive or even largely anti-capitalist, there are few books exploring degrowth from a perspective explicitly critical of capitalism that engages with wider debates on the left—that is, one that sees systems of domination such as patriarchy, colonialism, imperialism, racism, and capitalism as the central, structural problems facing us today.

… could there be a more inelegant word than ‘degrowth’?…

… and now installing LR… taking a long time… so far, with apps i installed, the computer seems to be running more smoothly… adobe products the big test…

Richard Misrach, Notations

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… love the idea of subject being tiny… then there is the endless sea… point of the picture?…

Ewan Terlford, The Ecology of Dreams

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… i wanted to remember this body of work…

Sean Lotman, The Sniper Paused to Wipe His Brow

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… the title of the book got me on this one…

… creative cloud app taking looong time to load… relaunched to see if that made a difference… the relaunch worked… so far, nothing appearing in the launch pad…

Brian Rose, Four Seasons Total Landscaping

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… this one because of the 45 connection…