depression, retail therapy, border patrol, fbi, atf, authoritarianism | daily me

i have gained weight since coming out here… struggling to stay within my calorie limits… alcohol part of the problem… snacking… eating to much at regular meals… as i write this i realize that i am feeding my depression… feed a fever, starve a cold?… or something like that… feed a depression, because, you know, deprivation only fuels the depression…