First Thoughts
… angry with myself… drank a little more than i should have last night… drank enough that i lost motivation to clean up the kitchen after dinner… this gets the following morning off to a bad start… it’s a negative energy start… plus, i feel a little the worse for the alcoholic wear… i don’t have a drinking problem per se, it’s just that i like it a little too much in the moment… i exchange those momentary good feelings for a cascade of not so good feelings, physically and emotionally, following in its wake… i keep trying to remind myself that i don’t like the negative cascade that follows, but it doesn’t usually stop me… how much better i fell all around when i drink moderately or not at all… how much better the next day starts… i am determined to learn this lesson before i die…
… the January 6th Select Committee hearings began yesterday… i am in awe of Liz Cheney… maybe even a little in love with her… she and i are on the opposite side of almost any policy debate, but i deeply respect her for putting her political career on the line to do the right thing… the testimony from the police was powerful and moving… it’s too early to hope that there will be consequences for those involved from within government… it’s too early to think that the hearings will persuade enough people that the far right is a problem… but it got off to a good start…
… i hear Fiona scratching around downstairs… she was a restless girl last night… got me up at 2 AM to let her out… not sure she did much when i did… i did get back to sleep but up again at 4 AM… she is coming upstairs now… she is on the studio bed now… good, i don’t have to go see if she is getting into trouble…
… the birds are starting to sing…
… yesterday i paid attention to the Cicadas for the first time this summer… i assume they have been rattling for a while and i haven’t focused on it… the Cicadas a sure sign that we are past the middle of summer, i wrote a haiku about it…
Cicadas rattling in the trees— where does the time go?
… it doesn’t appear to be the predicted brood X inundation… there was one year when in some places there were swarms of them flying through the air… i haven’t seen that this year… maybe i need to drive north… that’s where we encountered the swarms before… we have to do that on Sunday, so maybe then…