First Thoughts

… a better night’s sleep again… without AC…

… Cardinal singing loudly outside my window… standing in for the Robin which has been absent lately?…

… i need to step up my daily reading time… i have a growing pile of books on subjects i am interested in to wade through, both ebooks and analog form books…

… C says J has been doing worse the last few days… she is not sure J fully understands what hospice care means, that maybe his cognitive decline is preventing him from taking it fully on board… i think it might be denial… i am wondering what i will find when i go down to see them at the end of August…

… eras in both our families seem to be coming to an end and new ones begun… the nieces and nephews are all starting their new lives and creating their own eras, while our parents are reaching the end of theirs…

… i continue to think about why i produce art, how i produce it, and how i will make it available to the world if at all… can something be done purely for its own sake?… i continue to be disenchanted by the art market system, which generally has artists at the bottom of the profit pyramid, and works to coop challenges to the system into itself, or suppress those challenges… the capitalist/market system sucks the soul out of just about everything it touches…

… news that our vet has been bought by a corporate entity, PetMed, or PetMD, or something like that… we don’t like that our vet is going corporate… already our primary doctor has left… must everything become corporatized?… we also wonder if they will ever go back to in-person care, as opposed to curbside drop off… we fear that we will never see a doctor in person again…