I almost got hit by a car this morning. Someone turned left and was taking no prisoners. They just missed me. A woman witnessed it. She said I was in the right and that I was almost hit. I am shaken. I am wondering if I have experienced my first hate incidence, or was it just an idiot?
Have I mentioned how much I love wearing lipstick? Of all the things I do to feel feminine, this is hands down the most potent. When I am not wearing lipstick, I miss it in a visceral way.
All the thought and attention I am paying to my feminine look is inspiring the women close to me to be more thoughtful about their appearance too. I’ve seen this in my wife, and in a friend, who told me last night that she now thinks more carefully about her look when she knows she will see me.
This dress came today and it’s amazing! From the compostable/recyclable packaging it came in, to the quality construction of the garment, to the way it fit me, to the reasonable price of all that! I will be buying more from Everlane.
Total score!
As I spend more time openly presenting in a feminine way, I realize that it is exactly that. Adopting and adapting feminine signals to my body. It’s perhaps less about wanting to be a woman, as it is about claiming the right to present my masculine body femininely if that aligns better with how i feel.
… it’s hard to express this as fully as i feel it, but i love my feminine self… i love wearing feminine clothes… i love wearing jewelry… i love wearing lipstick… i love the way all of it makes me feel…
New addition to my bracelet collection…
It’s a little delicate for me but my plan is to get a few of them…
It’s been difficult to find bracelets that fit my male sized wrists. Always a joy to find one that does.
A long form post from last year pointing towards my entry into trans-feminine space. 6 months later I buy my first lipstick.
I am one of those few people who actually enjoys homemaking. Certainly, I am one of that even rarer species, a cisgender man who actually enjoys housework. Vacuuming and tidying up is rewarding to me because it makes order out of chaos on a weekly basis. Folding laundry is a mindfulness practice as far as I am concerned. Cooking is a spiritual practice of deep devotion, and feeding someone a profound act of love. Doing it daily is a devotional practice of love.
Today’s look…
Every day I make a selfie or 2 or 3 of my look. I found the beaded headband at France Luxe. Lipstick Clinique Bamboo Pink.
When the soul wants to experience something she throws out an image in front of her and steps into it.
–Meister Eckhart
Every day I assemble a selection of images of women as inspiration for my feminine within. The above is a screen shot of search results returned By Deviant art for “fashion photography.”
I have been struggling with writing any kind of long form post about my journey into trans-feminine space. So, instead, I will focus on micro posts. Maybe they will build into something.